tubz ! truly yours

hoooooooo!

2006-04-23T14:14:00.000+08:00

i did it again.i overspent last night at zouk!but it was a great night ! Eddie Rox and LIVERPOOL WON =P! i left my camera at home, didnt manage to take pics, aih wasted!

"I was drowning my sorrows, but they learned to swim" - U2

pictures uploaded at yahoo photos.

some pics from genting

*fierce*

art and his thousand "na's !"

some from mambo

tubz jay and cb

yahooooooooooooo !

and poppy's

groupie !

oak and his harems

*cheers*

Me-Me

2006-04-15T18:46:00.000+08:00

I literally burnt my hair today.

Me-Me tagged by Julian

Nicknames: tubby, tubz, fat cat
B-day: Dec 6
Age: 23
Sex: Male
Where do you live: Subang Jaya
Pets: 3 tortise, little guppy fishes, wiggy the dog ( which now lives in Klang )
Zodiac Sign: Sagitarius
Righty or Lefty: Im a righty but i wank using my lefty
Hair color: Black
Hair length: Short
Eye color: Black ?
Height: 5 ft 8"
Do u wear contacts or glasses?: glasses
Do you have any piercings? Nope
Do you have a tattoo? No, but planning to have one
Do you wear any rings? No
Do you have a certain fashion you follow? A little, mainly clothings

Current News...

How are you today?: fine i guess
What pants are you wearing right now?: Towel
What shirt are you wearing right now?: None
What does your hair look like at the moment?: Short, messy, and burnt.
What song are u listening to right now?: Kylie Minogue - Love at first sight
What was the last thing u ate?: Bak Kut Teh !
Last person you talked to on the phone?: Alvin Wong
Last Dream you can remember: I cant
Who are you talking to right now?: Shi Man on Msn
What are the last four digits of your phone number?: 1218

Random Stuff..

If u were a crayon, what color would u want to be?: Blue
What CD are you going to buy next?: More pirated Cd's and Dvd's
What's the best advice ever given to you?: Never regret your actions
What are your future goals?: promotion, house, new car, getting married
Do u like to dance?: Yea
Worst sickness u ever had?: food poisoning. Urgh.
What's the stupidest thing u've ever done?: Over turned my car =P
If u could change one thing about yourself what would it be?: Im happy with myself now *i think*
Where do you shop the most?: Pyramid mainly

Ever more random stuff...

How many kids do you want to have?: 2
Son's name: Tubby ?
Daughter's name: Tubby ?
Do you do drugs?: Yea used to.
Do you drink?: Yeah of cos !
What kind of shampoo and conditioner do you use?: Head & shoulder *Menthol!* Refreshing!
What sport do you hate the most?: Cricket
How many TV's do you have in your house?: 3
Do you have your own?: Yes
ur own phone line?: Handphone yes
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal?: no
Have you ever broken/sprained/fractured a bone?: Broke nothing. Sprained my ankle
Who do you dream about?: Porn star actress *cytheria* woo =P

Are you sappy Romantic? i guess

Do you believe in Love?: Yeah
Do you have a girlfriend or boyfriend?: No
Do you have a crush?: Yeah
Do you believe in Love at first sight? Not really
Where would you like to go on your honeymoon?: Spain, Italy
What song do you want played at your wedding?: :S
What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?: Everything =P haha
Are you shy to ask someone out? No
Who do u want to spend the rest of your life with?: My Wife

Girls on Guys (Girls only, unless you're gay or something.)

Boxers or briefs:
Curly or straight hair:
Tall or short:
Six pack or muscular arms:
Good or bad guys:
Ears pierced or not:
tan or no tan:
Dimples or not?:
Stubble or neatly shaven:
Rugged or sporty:
Studly or cutie:
Accent or not:
Smart or dumb:
what sports should he play?:
dependent (whipped) or independent?:

Guys on Girls (Guys only, unless you like to fondle tofu)

Sandals or thongs: Sandals
Painted nails or not: Non Painted
Regular or sports bra: Regular
Bra straps showing or not: Depends
Cute n' mysterious or wild n' sexy: Wild and Sexy
smart or dumb: Smart
Dark or blonde hair: Dark
Long or short hair: Long
Curly or straight hair: Straight
Dark, light, or crazy cool eyes: Dark * Crazy cool eyes ? huh ? Tau Kai aR?
Long or short nails: Short
Hat or no hat: Hat =)
Good or bad girl: Good girl
Hair up or down: Doesn’t matter
Jewellery or none: None
Tall or short: Shorter / same height
Accent or no accent: Herself
Pants or dress: Dress , easier =)
Tan or fair: Fair
Freckles or none: Not too much
Shy or outgoing: outgoing
Talkative or quiet: Talkative
Pretty indoor chick or crazy party chick: crazy indoor chick

Choices, choices...

Lights on/off: Off.
Sun or rain?: Sun
Do u like scary or happy movies better?: Happy
On the phone or in person?: in person
Paper or plastic?: paper
Summer or winter?: Summer
Hugs or kisses?: Hugs and Kisses ! Hugs.
Chocolate or white milk: None
Half empty or half full?: full
CD or DVD: DVD
Vanilla or Chocolate? CHOCOLATE
Skiing or Boarding: Skiing
Day or night: Day
Sunset or sunrise: Sunset

Favourites...

Colours: blue, white
Food: Spicy, chinese
Fast Food: KFC
Ice Cream Flavor: Chocolate
Sport?: Football
Animal: Dogs
Music?: All sorts
Song: Angel or Demons
Band: The Killers, Dishwalla
Number: 6,12
Actor or Actress?:
TV show: Rarely watch tv
Clothes Brand: Adidas, G2000, U2, Padini
Saying: Tiu

Confess thy sins..

Gotten Drunk?: Hell Yea!
Broke the law?: Who Havent ?
Ran from the cops?: I would use the term Avoiding them
Tried to kill yourself?: No comment
Made yourself throw up?: Yup
Been in love?: Yes
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: Yea
Did/Said something to hurt someone?: Yea

Reach out and Tag someone...
I tag no one.

dishwalla - every little thing

2006-04-02T16:07:00.000+08:00

Let me in
to see you in the morning light
to get me on and all along the tears they come
see all come
I want you to believe in life
but I get the strangest feeling that you've gone away
will you find out who you are too late to change?
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
some times

lift me up
just lift me up don't make a sound
and let me hold you up before you hit the Ground
see all come
you say your all right
but I get the strangest feeling
that you've gone away- you've gone away
and will you find out who you are too late to change?

I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted
all the time
some times

Don't give me up
don't give me up tonight
or soon nothing will be right at all
salvation
will you find out who you are too late to change?

I wish I could be
every little thing you wanted

nothing seems right

2006-04-02T13:08:00.000+08:00

does this ever happen to you guys?

everytime you worry bout someone, it has never occur to them it's a point of concern, but instead they felt it's invading their privacy.

whenever you do the wrong thing, you'll get a blast from all corners.

whenever you do the right thing, they shower you with little appreciation and then forget bout the whole damn thing.

and when they try to be a little nicer to you, you end screwing things up.

i can never seem to do the right thing. *ponders*

happy happy

2006-03-30T11:13:00.000+08:00

hmm, i woke up today feeling great! damn great! prob cos i had enough of sleep yesterday ! knocked off at 11 yest and woke up at 630. super da fresh man ! traffic was good this morning as well.

im just feeling great ! no words can describe how great i feel ! hahaha =P

hmm received some stuffs today for some customers from previous contest. haha.
i saw this dvd player .. which i really love to take it home with me but i cant ! sniff ! why cant i ? i wan i wan ..

lalalalalaa..
today is lazy day ! woo hoo ! happy but lazy .. gonna meet up wif some of them for lunch later ! woo hoo ! any1 wanna go to midval ? or 1 u ?

mahex! met up wif DHL area security manager today. he just bought a freaking n70 for 1540 ! fucking cheap la! i oso wan ! i wat oso wan ! damn it ..

no money laaaaaaa
haihhhhhhh

ok enuff of crapping ! muahahah

suprise!

2006-03-27T21:22:00.000+08:00

got a complaint from a friend who is in another country now, when i uploaded the pics into multiply. she was practically cursing in sort of languages. Ok! i get the picture. i've already uploaded the pictures in Yahoo! Photos under our group folder.so quit bitching will yea ! =P

picked up my parents from the airport this afternoon as they were coming back from langkawi.
suprise suprise. guess what my DADDY bought me.

~~yea yea i know .. my photography sucks!~~

well this isnt the first time that a family member bought me cig's. my first would be my brother when he got back from Hong Kong. Yup, u guess it right. A carton of my favourite Dunhill Full Flava! Yummy! any idea why they do it ? hmm

tying the knot

2006-03-27T18:33:00.000+08:00

just wanted to share this with all of you.
so who's next ? =P i vote EMILY the BLOG STALKER !

pictures uploaded

2006-03-26T17:06:00.000+08:00

hey!
pics uploaded in multiply and yahoo
I had to seperate the pics due to space restriction in multiply.
please click on the pictures for a direct link.

cny gathering dinner

finnegans

renault pit party

Babi Q. Pictures from Keat's camera is included as well.

username : tubztubztubz
pass : pm me on msn or call me

achtung!warning!amaran!
images from the babi q event, is advisable to be viewed by viewers 18 and above only.if you agree then you may proceed.

geisha with a twist !

2006-03-26T10:54:00.000+08:00

check it out !

to prove a point =)

2006-03-24T17:53:00.000+08:00

Dad sent this to me. Thought of sharing it with you guys!
Some tips for you guys out there!

The wife comes home early &finds her husband in their master bedroom
making love to a beautiful, sexy young lady!

"You unfaithful, disrespectful pig! What are you doing? How dare you
do this to me the faithful wife, the mother of your children! I'm
leaving this house I want a divorce!"

The husband, replies "Wait, wait a minute! Before you leave, at least
listen to what happened."

"Hummmmm, I don't know, well it'll be the last thing I will hear from you.
But make it fast, you unfaithful pig you"

The husband begins to tell his story . . . "While driving home this
young lady asks for a ride. I saw her so defenseless that went ahead
and allowed her in my car. I noticed that she was very thin, not well
dressed and
very dirty. She mentioned that she had not eaten for 3 days. With
great compassion and hurt, I brought her home and warmed up the
enchiladas that I made for you last night that you wouldn't eat
because you're afraid you'll gain weight; the poor thing, practically
devoured them. Since she was very dirty I asked her to take a shower.

While she was showering, I noticed her clothes were dirty and full of
holes so I threw her clothes away. Since she needed clothes, I gave
her the pair of jeans that you have had for a few years, that you can
no longer wear because they are too tight on you.

I also gave her the blouse that I gave you on our anniversary and you
don't wear because I don't have good taste. I gave her the pullover
that my sister gave you for Christmas that you will not wear just to
bother my
sister and I also gave her the boots that you bought at the expensive
boutique that you never wore again after you saw your co-worker
wearing the same pair."

The husband continues his story . . . .

"The young woman was very grateful to me and I walked her to the door.
When we got to the door she turned around and with tears coming out of
her eyes, she asked me:

"Sir, do you have anything else that your wife does not use"

Lyrics : Jason Mraz - Geek in The Pink

2006-03-21T20:31:00.000+08:00

Yo, Brotha A to z,
Yo, wussup B,
Yo, What time is it?

Ha-ha, It's laundry day!

(do do do...)

Well let the geek in the pink take a stab at it
If you like the way I'm thinkin' baby wink at it
I may be skinny at times but I'm fat fulla rhymes
Pass me the mic and I'm a grab at it
Isn't it delicious crazy way that I'm kissin'
This baby listen to this don't wanna miss it while it's hittin'
Sometimes you gotta fit in to get in
But don't ever quit cause soon I'm gonna let you in but see

I don't care what you might think about me
You'll get by without me if you want
Well,I could be the one to take you home
Baby we could rock the night alone
If we never get down it wouldn't be a let down
But sugar don't forget what you already know
I could be the one to turn you out
We could be the talk across the town
Don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another
You might regret what you let slip away

Like the geek in the pink (do do do...)
Like the geek in the pink, yeah (do do do...)
The geek in the pink

Well my relationship fodder don't mean to bother nobody
But Cupid's automatic musta fired multiple shots at her
Because she fall in love too often that's what the matter
At least I'm talkin' about it keep my pattern of flattery and
She was starin' through the doorframe,and
Eyeing me down like already a bad boyfriend
Well she can get her toys outta the drawer then
Cause I ain't comin' home I don't need that attention, see

I don't care what she might think about me
She'll get by without me if she wants
Well, I could be the one to take her home
Baby we could rock the night alone
If we never get down it wouldn't be a let down
But sugar don't forgetin' what you already know
That I could be the one to turn you out
We could be the talk across the town
Don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another
You might regret what you let slip away

Hey baby look at me go
From zero to hero
You better take it from a geek like me
Well I can save you from unoriginal dum-dums
Who wouldn't care if you com...plete him or not

So what I've got a short attention span
A coke in my hand
Because I'd rather have the afternoon, relaxin' understand
My hip hop and flip-flops well it don't stop with the light rock
My shot to mock you kinda puts me in the tight spot
The hype is nothing more than hoo-ha so I'm
Developing a language and I'm callin' it my own
So take a peek into the speaker and you'll see what I mean
That on the other side the grass is greener

I don't care what you might think about me
You'll get by without me if you want
I could be the one to take you home
Baby we could rock the night alone
If we never get down it wouldn't be a let down
But sugar don't forgetin' what you already know
I could be the one to turn you out
We could be the talk across the town
Don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another
You might regret what you let slip away
like the geek in the pink (do do do...)
I'm the geek in the pink ya'll
geek is the color for power
I'm the geek in the pink
so i'm the geek ya'll
in the pink ya'll
geek is the color for power
i'm the geek in the pink

Alive And Kicking !

2006-03-17T10:04:00.000+08:00

jerry is E V I L !

2006-03-16T22:55:00.000+08:00

Just had a conversation with Jerry, this is what he has to say

Jerry - said:
alvin so strong huh...1hour still having sex
tubz said:
u think every1 like u meh
Jerry - says:
high stamina
Jerry - says:
go alvin go

Jay Chou - Lang Man Shou Ji

2006-03-16T14:07:00.000+08:00

轻轻放
Qing Qing Fang
Lightly, letting go

我就是卸不下对你的喜欢
Wo Jiu Shi Xie Bu Xia Dui Ni De Xi Huan
But I just can't put down how much I like you

原来爱会慢慢增加重量
Yuan Lai Ai Hui Man Man Zeng Jia Zhong Liang
As love weighs heavier gradualy

想关上这城市所有的灯光
Xiang Guan Shang Zhe Cheng Shi Suo You De Deng Guang
I want to turn off all the lights in the city

黑暗中专心闻你的发香
Hei An Zhong Zhuan Xin Wen Ni De Fa Xiang
So in the darkness, I can smell the fragrance of your hair

这夜晚让暗恋很有画面感
Zhe Ye Wan Rang An Lian Hen Hou Hua Mian Gan
This night makes a crush very artistic

回想
Hui Xiang
Remembering

与你约会过的地方
Yu Ni Yue Hui Guo De Di Fang
The places where I dated you

都舍不得删
Dou She Bu De Shan
I don't want to erase

在脑海里储存欣赏
Zai Nao Hao Li Chu Cun Xin Shang
Stored in memories for recalling

你微笑浏览手机里的浪漫
Ni Wei Liao You Lan Shou Ji Li De Lang Man
You're smiling, surfing through the handphone in romance

原来真心送出爱是这么简单
Yuan Lai Zhen Xin Song Chu Ai Shi Na Me Jian Dan
As sending a message of steadfast love is actually that simple

温习萤幕上
Wen Xi Ying Mu Shang
Practising on the screen

你可爱的模样
Ni Ke Ai De Mo Yang
Your lovingly cute looks

关于缘分的解释
Guan Yu Yuan Fen De Jie Shi
Regarding our fate, to explain

我又多传了一行
Wo You Duo Chuan Le Yi Hang
I sent another line

你微笑浏览手机里的浪漫
Ni Wei Xiao You Lan Shou Ji Li De Lang Man
You're smiling, surfing through the handphone in romance

原来爱情可以来得这么突然
Yuan Lai Ai Qing Ke Yi Lai De Na Me Tu Ran
As love can just come so suddenly

短讯的桥梁
Duan Xun De Qiao Liang
A message being bridged

将暧昧期拉长
Jiang Ai Mei Qi La Chang
Makes our romance last longer

我们的感情蔓延滋长藏用文字培养
Wo Men De Gan Qing Man Yan Zi Zjamg Yong Wen Zi Pei Yang
Our love spreads and grows through words in cultivation

在虚拟土壤
Zai Xu Ni Tu Rang
In the virtual soil

电视墙
Dian Shi Qiang
TV on the wall

吵杂的情歌还在拼命播放
Chao Za De Qing Ge Hai Zai Pin Ming Bo Fang
Noisy love songs are still broadcasting

我安静在闹区等来电铃声
Wo An Jing Zai Nao Qu Deng Lai Dian Ling Sheng
I'm sitting in the districts quietly, waiting for my incoming ringtone

有一些话打好了却不敢传
You Yi Xie Hua Da Hao Le Que Bu Gan Chuan
With a message that I didn't dare to send

怕收到讯息的你在为难
Pa Shou Dao Xun Xi De Ni Zai Wei Nan
Afraid that you'll be troubled upon recieving it

街道上人潮衬托我的孤单
Jie Dao Shang Ren Chao Chen Tuo Wo De Gu Dan
On the streets, the crowd raged the loneliness in me

想象谁幸运的陪在你身旁
Xiang Xiang Shui Xing Yun De Pei Zai Ni Shen Pang
Thinking, who's the lucky one who is accompanying you

却误会一场
Que Wu Hui Yi Chang
But it was a misunderstanding

你也在等你手机响
Ni Ye Zai Deng Ni Shou Ji Xiang
You were waiting for your handphone to ring too

你微笑浏览手机里的浪漫
Ni Wei Xiao You Lan Shou Ji Li De Lang Man
You're smiling, surfing through the handphone in romance

原来真心送出爱是这么简单
Yuan Lai Zhen Xin Song Chu Ai Shi Na Me Jian Dan
As sending a message of steadfast love is actually that simple

温习萤幕上
Wen Xi Ying Mu Shang
Practising on the screen

你可爱的模样
Ni Ke Ai De Mo Yang
Your lovingly cute looks

关于缘分的解释
Guan Yu Yuan Fen De Jie Shi
Regarding our fate, to explain

我又多传了一行
Wo You Duo Chuan Le Yi Hang
I sent another line

你微笑浏览手机里的浪漫
Ni Wei Xiao You Lan Shou Ji Li De Lang Man
You're smiling, surfing through the handphone in romance

原来爱情可以来得这么突然
Yuan Lai Ai Qing Ke Yi Lai De Na Me Tu Ran
As love can just come so suddenly

短讯的桥梁
Duan Xun De Qiao Liang
A message being bridged

将暧昧期拉长
Jiang Ai Mei Qi La Chang
Makes our romance last longer

我们的感情蔓延滋长藏用文字培养
Wo Men De Gan Qing Man Yan Zi Zjamg Yong Wen Zi Pei Yang
Our love spreads and grows through words in cultivation

在虚拟土壤
Zai Xu Ni Tu Rang
In the virtual soil

drowning?

2006-03-16T09:33:00.000+08:00

whats wrong with me ?
im still not recovering
i still feel .. i dont know man..
am i drowning? am i really drowning?
all of u dat saw me yesterday night, for sure know i wasnt myself.
i cant. i dont know why.
i was being so negative. i dont know why ! so dont ask me whats wrong cos i dont.
just waiting for the weekend to drown my sorrows.
wtf man!sigh
i even piss/ed a person who is dear to me.
or maybe she is just ignoring me.
or maybe i really did piss her off.
or maybe it's just me ?

c r u m b l e

2006-03-15T12:40:00.000+08:00

my apologies to those who were with me yesterday afternoon.

it was said and done.

i was lost. i blew my fuse. i tripped and felt.

no worries. im picking myself up again.

felt damn uneasy the whole time.

could not sit my ass, could not even concentrate on a single thing. i was just not myself. i was so lost and i didnt know what to do. i would have confronted my problems, but the problem was i dont know where to begin. that's why i avoided all of you. it's my shit and it will be my shit.

i did had a quiet evening yest with friend, it was just a normal night out, but her presence did do me good. it's good seeing you after a long time.

to my friends who have drifted apart.

each of us has our dreams, and we have our own way of achieving it.

i wish all of you the best in life.

kelly clarkson : because of you

2006-03-14T19:11:00.000+08:00

it's so true ..

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake, a smile, a laugh
Every day of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust
Not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry
Every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry
In the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side
So I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

anybody needs a pair of pouty lips?

2006-03-13T12:24:00.000+08:00

Mr Neko`- Ganbatteh M'aime says:
amber is every malaysian man's hard on

tubz says:
hahaha

tubz says:
yuppers

tubz says:
i should have grabbed the opportunity to date her when i had the chance

tubz says:
shit man
Mr Neko`- Ganbatteh M'aime says:
wtf

tubz says:
i said no

tubz says:
damn it

tubz says:
now she is so famous

tubz says:
fark

Mr Neko`- Ganbatteh M'aime says:
tubby, lay off the cocaine

tubz says:
should have made a porn video wif her

tubz says:
lol

Mr Neko`- Ganbatteh M'aime says:
Anal-izing Amber eh

tubz says:
without me .. she wouldnt have wat she has 2day

tubz says:
it's bcos of my rejection she decided to go in modelling

tubz says:
luckily oso

Mr Neko`- Ganbatteh M'aime says:
you jolok her lips till so swollen ka

tubz says:
if not she'll be no1

tubz says:
my dick big la

tubz says:
i use it to slap her

Mr Neko`- Ganbatteh M'aime says:
AHAHAHAH

Mr Neko`- Ganbatteh M'aime says:
oi meh

tubz says:
dats y her waist so slender

vin- I'm soooo schhheeeeelleeeeepyyyyyy says:
haha

tubz says:
pouty lips

tubz says:
spank her ass wth my dick

Mr Neko`- Ganbatteh M'aime says:
her boobs so so nia

tubz says:
nice and round

tubz says:
my hands small la

tubz says:
cant squeeze very well

Mr Neko`- Ganbatteh M'aime says:
omfg

Mr Neko`- Ganbatteh M'aime says:
aahhaah

vin- I'm soooo schhheeeeelleeeeepyyyyyy says:
amber suck my kah wan before

tubz says:
lol

Mr Neko`- Ganbatteh M'aime says:
amber used to be the bicycle

tubz says:
lol
Mr Neko`- Ganbatteh M'aime says:
how we've fallen.. now boon jin is our bicycle

tubz says:
fei poh cho tan che .. pin pin pon pon

tubz says:
hurhur

Mr Neko`- Ganbatteh M'aime says:
soon he gonna have pouty lips and slender wasit

Mr Neko`- Ganbatteh M'aime says:
waist*

tubz says:
and a nice ass

tubz says:
lol
m_Ly says:
excuse me...he has all the above without the slender waist OK!!!!

Mr Neko`- Ganbatteh M'aime says:
give us more time ler

Mr Neko`- Ganbatteh M'aime says:
we'll get the waist done

m_Ly says:
muahahhaaaa

Mr Neko`- Ganbatteh M'aime says:
fuwaa emily standing up for her man

=)

when 2 souls collide

2006-03-12T13:37:00.000+08:00

the picture says it all!
lets all join in and wish him all the best!
dont forget the brotherhood! take care bro !

ouch

2006-03-11T15:16:00.000+08:00

i freaking strained my back last thursday. damn it. if it's not because of the customer i wouldn't have strained my back. bloody hell, it's not even in my job scope. when i told my manager that im gonna leave for home, she was like, why did you carry the monitor to the customers place ? it's not part of your job. *mahex u think i dunno meh knnccb* what to do. Then i have to explain to her that, this customer is important. our contract has ended with them, and the tender is open to all our competitors to mend their mailroom, tnt has came in with ridiculously low rates, and the mailroom guy wants to support dhl, thats why he has to show all this pro's bout us. being effective and stuffs like that.

if that is not bad enough on the way back to the office, crying in pain while driving, was stucked at this 2 way traffic lane, where being malaysians we will double park anywhere in sight, and this will lead too conjestion, stopped behind a red iswara, and the dude was reversing as there was an on coming traffic, i saw him coming and i was like WTF. started honking the horn like a mad man, *stupid kangoo horn worst then my FENARI* and that dude still reversed into it. I was like shit man .. wtf man.. this cant be happening man, first my BACK, now my FRONT *eh dat didnt sound right* front of the car i would say. :P came down, gave the dude a stare .. *growl* after talking and stuffs like dat and checking the damages .. HE DIDNT OFFER that he would pay . .stupid monkey, and i just told him to give me his number and name i'll call him once i check with the office. and he can still say .. in cantonese .. "chong che, ngo tei tol yau chor" ( Accident, we both oso got wrong ). i stared at him again and said .. what do u mean by NGO TEI? ( WE ?) then he giggle and said, sorry sorry, "mm hai ngo tei, hai ngo" ( not we all, it's me ).. KNNCCB.

today julian tried killing.

First, by dragging me out of my bed at 11AM ( I SLEPT AT 5AM knnccb )
Secondly, he suggested to eat RAMEN at pyramid ( Naik Kereta man i tell you )
Last but not least, sigh, he took a corner which almost make me flew to the driver side.

thx for the great day julian.
*nyekz*

screwed

2006-03-07T19:59:00.000+08:00

damn it

i was hoping to go to singapore to work.

i missed out on the chance to work in singapore due to something called "fate"

oh well, i've tried my very best to try to get an interview with the agency but with no vail.

called up the deng agency and what an asshole man.

this is how it goes.

tubz : hi can i speak to *****
*****: yea ***** speaking
tubz : i heard there's an opening for this job in singapore
*****: how did you know bout the job ?
tubz : oh a friend of mine told me about. he doesnt want his name to be said
*****: oh it's ok, no problem. did you friend go for the interview ?
tubz : yeah
*****: oh then he should know better and to inform you that, that was the last interview. <- SARCASM! This is where he pissed me off. KNNCCB
tubz : oh then nvm la
*****: but there are other vacancies here in KL ? i can help you out if you are interested
tubz : nah no thx ( after what u have said u think i'll let u keep my profile ar? cibai )

As a way to sure my professionalism, i've decided not to disclose the ~~kelly services~~ agency name.

2006-03-07T19:57:00.000+08:00

you once shut me off from your life
i hope that it would not happen again

lyrics whoring : cagnet - what will i do

2006-03-07T00:26:00.000+08:00

I'm not really sure of the words to say
If only you knew that I feel this way
I wanna give my heart to you
Show me the way that you want me to

I know for sure there's a place for us
I'm counting the days 'till I feel your touch
You come to me when I dream at night
When I'm with you, it will be so right

If you can see the love in my eyes
You should know that I'm on your side
Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh
I'll be yours, you'll be mine

Ooh... What will I do? Ooh... What will I do?
Ooh... What will I do? Ooh... What will I do?

If you can see the love in my eyes
You should know that I'm on your side
Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh Ooh
I'll be yours, you'll be mine

Ooh... What will I do? Ooh... What will I do?
Ooh... What will I do? Ooh... What will I do?

2006-03-06T20:35:00.000+08:00

take your time
dont worry bout me
i do not expect anything in return
i just wanna be there

take your time
dont worry bout me
i just wanna see you smile
i really do

take your time
dont worry bout me
your wound will heal
i know it will

take your time
dont worry bout me
you will love again
i know you will

take your time
dont worry bout me
i'll know when to let go
or when to leave

Dishwalla - Angels Or Devils

2006-03-06T20:34:00.000+08:00

This is the last time
That I'm ever gonna come here tonight
This is the last time I will fall
Into a place that fails us all inside

And I can see the pain in you
And I can see the love in you
And fighting all the demons will take time
Will take time

The angels they burn inside for us
And are we ever
Are we ever gonna learn to fly
The devils they burn inside of us
And are we ever gonna come back down
Come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

This is the last time
That I'm ever gonna give in tonight
Are there angels or devils crawling here?
I just want to know what blurs and what is clear to see

Well I can see the pain in you
And I can see the love in you
And fighting all the demons will take time
It will take time

The angels they burn inside for us
And are we ever
Are we ever gonna learn to fly
The devils they burn inside of us
And are we ever gonna come back down, come around
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could break us

And if I were to give in
I'd give it up and then
Take a breath, make it deep
'Cause it might be the last one you get
Be the last one that could make us cold
Could make us cold
I'm always gonna worry about the things that could make us cold

Jay Zhou & Lara - Shan Hu Hai

2006-03-06T20:30:00.000+08:00

海平面远方开始掩埋悲伤要怎么平静纯白
hai ping mian yuan fang kai shi yan mai / bei shang yao zhe me ping jing chun bai
The sea from far began to cover the surface , How could my sadness be calmed down

我的脸上始终夹带淹没浅浅的无奈
wo de lian shang shi zhong jia dai / yan mo qian qian de wu nai
I remained straight-faced, trying to cover a hint of resignation

你用唇语说你要离开
ni yong chun yu shuo ni yao li kai
You said that you wanted to leave

情不在
qing bu zai
Love is absent

他难过无声的留下来汹涌潮水
ta nan guo wu sheng de liu xia lai / xiong yong chao sui
He remained silent with a tinge of sadness. The raging waves

一定明白不是浪而是泪海
yi ding ming bai / bu shi lang er shi lei hai
(We) will understand that it is not the waves but a sea full of tears

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转身离开认真说不出来
zhuan shen li kai / ren zhen shuo bu chu lai
Turn around and leave, I can't speak out sincerely
你有话说不出来
ni you hua shuo bu chu lai
You have something to say but you can't speak

海鸟跟鱼相爱只是一场意外
hai niao gen yu xiang ai / zhi shi yi chang yi wai
The love between a sea-bird and a fish, is only an accidental occurence

我们的爱争议一直存在
wo men de ai / zheng yi yi zhi cun zai
Our love, has always been a controversial matter
给你的爱爭議一直存在回不來
gei ni de ai / zheng yi yi zhi chun zai hui bu lai
Our love has always existed, we can't go back

永久真爱竟累积成伤害
yong jiu zhen ai / jing lei ji cheng shang hai
A love forever true, ends up accumulating pain
等待经历几次伤害
deng dai jing li ji ci shang hai
How many times has waiting lead to pain?

轉身離開分手說不出來
zhuan shen li kai/fen shou shuo bu chu lai
You have something to say but you can't speak

蔚蓝的珊瑚海错过瞬间苍白
wei lan de shan hu hai / cuo guo shun jian cang bai
An azure coral sea, a missed momentary paleness

当初彼此不够成熟坦白
dang chu bi ci / bu gou cheng shou tan bai
At the beginning, both of our immature confessions
你有我的不够成熟坦白不应该
ni you wo de / bu gou cheng shou tan bai / bu ying gai
You have my immature confession; that shouldn't be

热情不在笑容勉强不来
re qing bu zai / xiao rong mian qiang bu lai
When there's no more warm feelings, smiles cannot be forced
你的笑容勉強不來
ni de xiao rong mian qiang bu lai
Your smiles cannot be forced

爱深埋珊瑚海
ai shen mai shan hu hai
Love is buried deep within the coral sea

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毁坏的沙碉如何重来有裂痕的爱怎么重盖
hui huai de sa diao ru he chong lai / you lie heng de ai zhe me chong gai
How do (we) rebuild the damaged sand sculpture , how could a relationship with cracks be fixed?

只是一切结束太快你说你无法释怀
zhi shi yi qie / jie shu tai kuai / ni shuo ni wu fa shi huai
Only that all has ended too quickly and you said you could not understand why

贝壳里隐藏什么期待
bei ke li ying cang she me qi dai
What surprises await in the shell

等花儿开
deng hua er kai
Waiting for the flowers to bloom

我们也已经无心再猜
wo men ye yi jing wu xin zai cai
We do not want to play the guessing game anymore

脸上海风，脸上海风，咸咸的爱，咸咸的爱，沉不出还有未来
lian shang hai feng / lian shang hai feng / xian xian de ai / xian xian de ai / cheng bu chu hai you wei lai
The sea breeze caressing the face , the salty love , (We) could not suppress the feelings for the future

Finally

2006-03-06T20:10:00.000+08:00

I've finally decided to blog again!

No more "Goh Ai Hwa's" Birthday :P

The End

Goh Ai Hwa's Birthday @ Alexis

2005-11-26T22:56:00.000+08:00

To view the album click here

Snow Wolf Lake !

2005-11-25T17:22:00.000+08:00

Assistant Coach Needed

2005-11-24T13:18:00.000+08:00

Assistant Coach Wanted

Chronology of Boobies FC

Average Age : 24

Average Stats : 36 24 36

Average Height : 5 ft 6

Previous Achievements :

Winners of the Boobies Cup 2003
Winners of The Champions Slut Cup 2003
Winners of the F.A Cup ( Fuck Alot ) 2003
Runners Up of the Boobfuck Cup 2002

Looking for young and energectic worker.
Willing to work for a minimal fee and long hours.
The ability to have an erection without the help of little blue pills.
The ability to give Bugakeh blessings to the players before every match is an additional advantage.

Those with weak knees may not need to apply.

To those who are interested you may submit your resumes to

HR@boobiesFC.com

Best Regards
Shannon Lung
Head Coach
Boobies FC

Lyrics : Jet - Move On

2005-11-23T02:29:00.000+08:00

Well, I've been thinkin’ ’bout the future,
I'm too young to pretend
It’s such a waste,
to always look behind you
You should be lookin’ straight ahead

Yeah I’m gonna have to move on,
before we meet again
Yeah it’s hard
If you had only seen

Ten thirty-four, Flinders Street Station,
I’m lookin’ down the tracks
A uniform man,
askin’ how-I’m-a-pay-it-all.
Why would I wanna be there

Yeah I'm gonna have to move on,
before we meet again
Yeah it’s hard
If you had only seen
Take control,
and don't be afraid of me

Every once in a while,
you think about if you're gonna,
get yourself together
You should be happy just to be alive
And just because,
you just don’t feel like, coming home,
don’t mean that you'll never arrive

Yeah, I’m gonna have to move on,
before we meet again
Yeah it’s hard
If you had only seen.
Take control,
don’t be afraid of me

Beware : EMO RANT !

2005-11-21T20:17:00.000+08:00

Sappy Tunes - Beyond - Hoi Foot Ting Hung

Another year is ending.

And there's nothing that i've accomplish that will make me look back and say, it was a great year.

It was a bumpy year for me.

I was picked up by the most beautiful person on earth and it was with her hands that pushed me off the cliff.

I was grateful that i have a bunch great friends to be there and lift me back up again.

Oh well, it's not completely nothing that i have nothing to at 2005, there are. But just a few. 2006 will be tougher for me. And i'll make sure that i will make it through.

A better me, i aim for 2006

Time passes so quickly when everything around you is so fine. But you hope for time to pass quicker when you are in grieve.

To be in the dark all alone and feeling cold, i've been through it. It was the darkest moment of my life. I've been through that phase, uncountable times.
But it was them, that brought me back up. They showed me the light. They showed me warmth.

Friends

I appreciate them the most. They are the greatest people that i've met.

Yes it's true, that i always say, in my very own skeptical way. I tell myself and you all of you that you are just companionship in my life.My perception changed due to some dissapointment in friendship. Thats why i have decided to take it lightly from now on. Some of you may even think that way bout me, but some of you dont

I have not been tested before on how far i would go to reach out for a friend, but i hope unconciously it was my hand that reached one of you out there before.

There are no words and expression on how i can express my gratitude to all of you.

All of you have been great! And thanks for accepting me for who i am.

Family

They are my very last resort, when im lost. Real lost.
No matter how are relationship will be. I'll always appreciate for what they have done for me. The way they have brought me up, I'll always appreciate it.

It's funny, the way we communicate in the house, my dad, we barely talk since i was young, but thanks to techonolgy, i've been commnicating with him alot via SMS.
The greatest person on earth. The strongest person that i've known. The person i have the upmost respect for is only you. No one can ever replace you in my heart.
You have guided me all the way, without ever letting go. All the dissapointment that i have left for you, but still, you did not let me go.

My sister, my eldest sister.
The way she loved me, the way she pampered when i was young ( even now once in awhile) and with the way she has brought herself up to this world is Another soul i will always respect and look up too. I know i'll never be near where you're now nor i'll ever surpass you. But i hope i'll make it someday, to tell stand beside you and say, it's because of what you have done with your life, made me what i am today.

My sister in law
The jo bringer.
It's your voice that made us feel as a whole. It's your presence that brought smile to us. I may always say that you're noisy when we're in the house, having dinner or just by watching tv, but it's your voice that brought us joy. I've miss alot of moments at home, but i'll be there always to share the moments once i've over come this task of mine. Next month, i'll be seeing all of you more and more.
It's been a long time since we sat on the same table and have a ~~quiet~~ dinner.

My Career
I've been through jobs which didnt even paid well, and didnt even have any good benefits. But yet, im here to prove to all, that i can make it, even though im a non graduate. But it shall all change soon. Most of you know that i'll most likely start studying part time next year, just a diploma though, but im most certain that i should have the time to do it.

I'm happy with where im working now.
I have great colleagues to work with. Great people i shall say.
Some of them are my friends now compared to just colleagues.

Giving up this position now is something very hard for me to do, as i'll be seeing all this great people lesser. But i have to for go all this just for my own sake.
Will i seek happiness in my new position ? Will i meet great people ? I shall wait.

Hehe!
Sorry guys, im in the mood to EMO ! :)

And i feel like tagging someone. does it work this way ?
who gives a damn.

Im gonna tag,

Julian
Alvin
Oak

Lets Emo-Me-Me

Were are very own F.R.I.E.N.D.S

2005-11-15T22:20:00.000+08:00

The Rembrandts - I'll Be There For You

So no one told you life was gonna be this way [four claps]
Your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year, but

CHORUS
I'll be there for you
(When the rain starts to fall)
I'll be there for you
(Like I've been there before)
I'll be there for you
('Cause you're there for me too)

You're still in bed at ten and work began at eight
You've burned your breakfast so far things are going great
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these
But she didn't tell you when the world has brought you down to your knees but

CHORUS
I'll be there for you
(When the rain starts to pour)
I'll be there for you
(Like I've been there before)
I'll be there for you
('Cause you're there for me too)

No one could ever know me
no one could ever see me
Seems you're the only one who knows what it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with, make it through all the rest with
Someone I'll always laugh with
Even at my worst, I'm best with you, Yeah!

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year

CHORUS
I'll be there for you
(When the rain starts to pour)
I'll be there for you
(Like I've been there before)
I'll be there for you
('Cause you're there for me too)

REPEAT CHORUS

2005-11-15T20:30:00.001+08:00

I'll give you a piece of my mind when you are ready to talk to me.
What you posted was unacceptable.
There are people who has gone through or is going through situation which is tougher then this.
Totally understand when you commented "it's all shattered. i could feel the pain, but i don't feel any beat anymore."
It was your decision to choose to go after someone.
It's your fcuking responsibilty to be able to pick your else up again.
Not by just saying goodbye and writting a will, and by just saying how grateful you're for having us as a friend, fcuk off then. A friend doesnt just leave like that.
If anything were to happen to you, wherever u'll be heaven or hell, you will never see me there infront of your damn casket weeping away, yet i'll be away, telling everyone how stupid my friend was.
We're always there when you need someone. What are friends for?
Just by typing how grateful you're for having us, and yet once decided to leave us ?
And you call yourself a friend.
I do not hate you, as you're still here.
As friends, we can help you wipe away things and always be there for you.
And as friends, we expect the same from you. Be there for us.
Call me, nudge me, sms me, email me, blog bout me, WHATEVER FCUCKING WAY.
I'll be there.

Dear You Know Who
It's not your fault.
It's not his fault.
It's no one's fault when you're in love.
We still love you and care for you.

Take care all

It's the way you react

2005-11-15T19:47:00.000+08:00

Got this from a colleague, just thought of sharing it with all of you

10% of life is made up of what happens to you.
90% of life is decided by how you react.

What does this mean? We really have no control over 10% of what happens to us. We cannot stop the car from breaking down. The plane be late arriving, which throws our whole schedule off. A driver may cut us off in traffic. We have no control over this 10%.The other 90% is different. You determine the other 90%.

How? By your reaction.

You cannot control a red light., but you can control your reaction. Don't let people fool you; YOU can control how you react.

Let's use an example.

You are eating breakfast with your family. Your daughter knocks over a cup of coffee onto your business shirt. You have no control over what just what happened. What happens when the next will be determined by how you react. You curse. You harshly scold your daughter for knocking the cup over. She breaks down in tears. After scolding her, you turn to your spouse and criticize them for placing the cup too close to the edge of the table. A short verbal battle follows. You storm upstairs and change your shirt. Back downstairs, you find your daughter has been too busy crying to finish breakfast and get ready for school. She misses the bus.

Your spouse must leave immediately for work. You rush to the car and drive your daughter to school. Because you are late, you drive 40 miles an hour in a 30 mph speed limit. After a 15-minute delay and throwing $60 (traffic fine) away, you arrive at school. Your daughter runs into the building without saying goodbye. After arriving at the office 20 minutes late,you find you forgot your briefcase. Your day has started terrible. As it continues, it seems to get worse and worse. You look forward to coming home,When you arrive home, you find small wedge in your relationship with your spouse and daughter. Why? Because of you reacted in the morning.

Why did you have a bad day?

A) Did the coffee cause it?

B) Did your daughter cause it?

C) Did the policeman cause it?

D) Did you cause it?

The answer is D. You had no control over what happened with the coffee. How you reacted in those 5 seconds is what caused your bad day.

Here is what could have and should have happened.

Coffee splashes over you. Your daughter is about to cry. You gently say, "Its ok honey, you just need to be more careful next time". Grabbing a towel you rush upstairs. After grabbing a new shirt and your briefcase, you come back down in time to look through the window and see your child getting on the bus. She turns and waves. You and your spouse kiss before you go to work. You arrive 5 minutes early and cheerfully greet the staff. Your boss comments on how good the day you are having.

Notice the difference? Two different scenarios. Both started the same. Both ended different.

Why? Because of how you REACTED.

You really do not have any control over 10% of what happens. The other 90% was determined by your reaction. Here are some says to apply the 90/10 principle.

If someone says something negative about you, don't be a sponge. Let the attack roll off like water on glass. You don't have to let the negative comment affect you! React properly and it will not ruin your day. A wrong reaction could result in losing a friend, being fired, getting stressed out etc. How do you feel if someone cuts you off in traffic? Do you lose your temper? Pound on the steering wheel? (A friend of mine had the steering wheel fall off) Do you curse? Does your blood pressure skyrocket? Do you try and bump them? WHO CARES if you arrive ten seconds later at work? Why let the cars ruin your drive?

Remember the 90/10 principle, and do not worry about it.

You are told you lost your job. Why lose sleep and get irritated? It will work out. Use your worrying; energy and time into finding another job. The plane is late; it is going to mangle your schedule for the day. Why take out your frustration on the flight attendant? She has no control over what is going on. Use your time to study, get to know the other passenger. Why get stressed out? It will just make things worse.

Now you know the 90-10 principle. Apply it and you will be amazed at the results. You will lose nothing if you try it. The 90-10 principle is incredible. Very few know and apply this principle. The result? Millions of people are suffering from undeserved stress, trials, problems and heartache. There never seems to be a success in life.

Bad days follow bad days. Terrible things seem to be constantly happening.

There is constant stress, lack of joy, and broken relationships. Worry consumes time. Anger breaks friendships and life seems dreary and is not enjoyed to the fullest. Friends are lost. Life is a bore and often seems cruel. Does this describe you? If so, do not be discouraged. You can be different!

Understand and apply the 90/10 principle. It will change your life.

hmm?

2005-11-12T05:15:00.000+08:00

oh well oh well!
my bad my bad for not updating this blog for a freaking long time :P

just got bad from a session on erm chit chatting talk cock KNNCB session with Tek and julz ! hehe ! had a gr8 time after all .. even after the screwed up from the initial plan of John Digweed @ zouk !! BAH!! total disaster!

anyway, it was gr8 having a session with u guys! something different thought, and talking bout craps dat we've been thru.. :) oh well oh well!

bah! i wan go sleep la!
freaking sleepy dee wei !
hohoho!
lunch on JULZ tomorrow! 12/11/05!

Thankiew! :D

My journey so far

2005-10-18T03:31:00.000+08:00

I still remember the very day that me and julian went to this employment agency in shah alam. Two blur donkeys dressed up with our best slack and shirt and equipped with our tie and nicely printed resume. We were actually gonna try out for a job in the in customer service industry.

Got called up from the agency regarding an appointment with DHL. Me and Jul was like WTF is DHL ? Both of us attended the interview with high hopes and apparently one of the supervisor is julian's friend aunty. Appreciated what you did for me jul.

Worked my ass off and proved to them why i deserved a permanent status in DHL. After 4 months i got what i wanted, and still have to go 3 months of probation, but what the hell :D. Met loads of great and pathetic people. Colleagues became friends. Memories that we shared * Priceless *. We will always just talk about how dumb can our customers and how pain in the ass they will be. Moments we shared during our annual dinner.. MY FREE CAMERA! yay! and FREE FLOW OF BOOZE !! ahhhhhhh !! food sucks though.

For the past 15 months while im attached in the deparment, i've learned alot of things. I can even tell you more bout DHL now! Hehe. Applied for a sales vacancy after working 13 months of the screwed up working hours and screwed up working days, and and did not get it and was kept on HOLD for a deng month without any outcome whether did or did i not get the job, until last month, that i had to go through a gruesome interview with another colleague of mine.

It was worth the wait. In Dec i'll be in another department and different position.
I'll be driving an ugly looking yellow color mpv, but heck with it. Gonna be paid a lil more, but not enough :(. Working my position now actually lets me earn more by just working a few xtra hours a week. Damn im gonna miss OT!

But hell with it. Im getting back my life, and this is a career advancement for me.

Definetly gonna miss the weekdays party. Sniff bye bye Mambo Jambo and Ghetto, but hello to my WEEKENDS! I actually will be travelling alot, as i will based in jalan ipoh *argh* but HECK with it, im gonna be meeting alot of office girls! hurhur!

I'll definetly gonna miss the people that i met and grew up with in the working world. I'll be continuing my studies next year in FEB if everything goes well. Bernard we are gonna be COLLEGE MATES! I havent talked to my parents about it yet, but knowing them they'll be very supportive.

I actually regreted not appreciating the chance to study when i had, but i guess it's not too late right? Nothing to grieve about now, but to actually to move on with life and set my journey right this time.

I've already set another target to achieve in 2007, which is to go another step higher, and if everything goes well, i'll be completing my course by end of 2008 ? Can foresee myself being occupied by things in the next 2 and 1/2 years, but it's worth it. I know it will be !

Lyrics : Sum 41 - Pieces

2005-10-17T20:44:00.000+08:00

I tried to be perfect, but nothing was worth it
I don't believe it makes me real
I thought it'd be easy, but no one believes me
I meant all the things that I said.

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own.

This place is so empty
My thoughts are so tempting
I don't know how it got so bad
Sometimes it's so crazy
That nothing can save me,
But it's the only thing that I have.

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own.

On my own.

Ahh!

I tried to be perfect it just wasn't worth it
Nothing could ever be so wrong
It's hard to believe me
It never gets easy
I guess I knew that all along.

If you believe it's in my soul
I'd say all the words that I know
Just to see if it would show
That I'm trying to let you know
That I'm better off on my own.

So True

2005-10-16T17:51:00.000+08:00

Got this from anotherblog actually. Decided to repost it to share it with you peepz!
Enjoy !

I have been meaning to pen some thoughts for some time now, to let people actually read the views of the typical ‘overseas Malaysian’ who is kept away. I realise that my email is rather long, but I do hope that you would consider publishing it (and also keep my name private!).

I shall start by telling a little about my background. Mine is a rather sad tale – of a young Malaysian full of hope and patriotic enthusiasm, which is slowly but surely trickling away.

I am very different from many other non-bumiputeras, as I was given tremendous opportunities throughout my childhood. Born into a middle-class Chinese but English-speaking family, I grew up with all the privileges of imported books, computers, piano/violin lessons and tuition teachers.

My parents insisted that I should be exposed to a multi-racial education in a national school. In my time, my urban national school (a missionary school) was a truly happy place – where the Malays, Chinese and Indian students were roughly equal in proportion. We played and laughed with each other, and studied the history of the world together during Form 4, with one interesting chapter dedicated to Islamic history.

Though 75% of my teachers were Malays, I never really noticed. My Malay teachers were the kindest to me – teaching me well and offering me every possible opportunity to develop. I led the district teams for English and Bahasa Malaysia debating competitions. I was the only non-Malay finalist in the Bahasa Malaysian state-level elocution competition. My Malay teachers encouraged me to transfer to a government residential school (sekolah berasrama penuh) so as to enable me to maximise my academic potential. I refused because I was happy where I was, so they made me head prefect and nominated me as a ‘Tokoh Pelajar Kebangsaan’. Till this day, I am absolutely certain that it was the kindness of all my Malay teachers which made me a true Malaysian.

I excelled at school and was offered a Singaporean government scholarship to study overseas. I turned them down because I wanted to ensure that I would remain a ‘true Malaysian’ in the eyes of Malaysia. So I accepted a Malaysian government scholarship to study at Oxford University. Throughout my three years as an undergraduate, the officers at the MSD looked after me very well, and was always there to offer support.

I graduated with first class honours, and was offered a job with a leading investment bank. The JPA released me from my bond, so as to enable me to
develop my potential. I shall always be grateful for that. I worked hard and rose in rank. My employer sent to me to Harvard University for postgraduate study and I climbed further up their meritocratic ladder.

Now I am 31 years old and draw a comfortable monthly salary of US$22,000. Yet, I yearn to return home. I miss my home, my family, my friends, my Malaysian hawker food and the life in Malaysia. I have been asked many times by Singaporean government agencies to join them on very lucrative terms, but I have always refused due to my inherent patriotism.

I really want to return home. I have been told by government-linked corporations and private companies in Malaysia that at best, I would still have to take a 70% pay cut if I return to Malaysia to work. I am prepared and willing to accept that. My country has done a lot for me, so I should not complain about money.

But of late, my idealistic vision of my country has really come crashing down, harder and faster than ever before.

I read about the annual fiasco involving non-bumiputera top scorers who are denied entry to critical courses at local universities and are offered forestry and fisheries instead. (My cousin scored 10A1’s for SPM and yet was denied a scholarship).

I read about UMNO Youth attacking the so-called meritocracy system because there are less than 60% of Malay students in law and pharmacy, whilst conveniently keeping silent about the fact that 90% of overseas scholarship recipients are Malays and that Malays form the vast majority in courses like medicine, accountancy and engineering at local universities.

I read about the Higher Education Minister promising that non-bumiputera Malaysians will never ever step foot into UiTM.

I read about a poor Chinese teacher’s daughter with 11A1’s being denied a scholarship, while I know some Malay friends who scored 7A’s and whose parents are millionaires being given scholarships.

I read about the brilliant Prof. K.S. Jomo, who was denied a promotion to Senior Professor (not even to Head of Department), although he was backed by references from three Nobel Prize winners. Of course, his talent is recognised by a prestigious appointment at the United Nations.

I read about UMNO Youth accusing Chinese schools of being detrimental to racial integration, while demanding that Mara Junior Science Colleges and other residential schools be kept only for Malays.

I read about the Malay newspaper editors attacking the private sector for not appointing enough Malays to senior management level, whilst insisting that the government always ensure that Malays dominate anything government-related.

I read that at our local universities, not a single Vice-Chancellor or Deputy Vice-Chancellor is non-Malay.

I read that in the government, not a single Secretary-General of any ministry is non-Malay. The same goes for all government agencies like the police, armed forces, etc.

I read about UMNO screaming for the Malay Agenda, but accusing everyone else of racism for whispering about equality.

I read about a poor Indian lady having to pay full price for a low-cost house after being dispossessed from a plantation, whilst Malay millionaires demand their 10% bumiputera discount when buying RM2 million bungalows in a gated community.

I read about my beloved national schools becoming more and more Islamic by the day, enforced by overzealous principals.

I read about my Form 4 World History (Sejarah Dunia) syllabus, which now contains only one chapter of world history, with Islamic history covering the rest of the book.

As I read all this, I tremble with fear. I love my country and long to return. I am willing to take a 70% pay cut. I am willing to face a demotion. I honestly want to contribute my expertise in complex financial services and capital markets. But really, is there a future for me, for my children and for their children? I am truly frightened.

I can deal with the lack of democracy, the lack of press freedom, the ISA, our inefficient and bureaucratic civil service, our awful manners and even a little corruption. But I cannot deal with racism in my homeland.

I think this is the single biggest factor which is keeping people like myself away. And bear in mind – there are so many of us (researchers, scientists, bankers, economists, lawyers, academics, etc.). What people read about in Malaysia (like Dr Terence Gomez) is but the tiniest tip of the iceberg. You will be amazed to know about Malaysians denied JPA scholarships (which would have made them civil servants), took loans to attend Ivy League universities, but who are later asked to advise our government (on IT, economics, etc.) at fees running to millions of US dollars. Such information will never be published because it is politically incorrect.

As a Christian, I pray for God’s blessing on this great country of ours. I pray that He blesses our leaders with the foresight and humanity to see that this will not work and cannot continue. I pray that they will have the strength to make our country a home for all Malaysians and that they will have mercy for the poor, including the non-Malays. I pray for true racial harmony and acceptance (not just tolerance) in Malaysia.

Yours sincerely,
A very frightened Malaysian abroad

Being 20 Something

2005-10-13T18:55:00.000+08:00

They call it the "Quarter-life Crisis". It is when you stop going along
with the crowd and start realizing that there are many things about
yourself that u didn't know and may not like. You start feeling insecure
and wonder where u will be in a year or two, but then you get even more worried
because u barely know where you are now

You start realizing that people are selfish and that, maybe, those friends
that you thought you were so close to aren't exactly the greatest people you
have ever met, and the people u have lost touch with are some of the
most important ones. What you don't recognize is that they are realizing
that too, and aren't really cold catty, mean or insecure, but that they
are just as confused as you are.

You look at your job and education and it is not even close to what u thought you would be doing, or maybe you are looking for a job and realizing that you are going
to have to start at bottom because of your education strength, and that scares you once again.

Your opinions have gotten stronger. You see what others are doing and find
Your self judging more than usual because suddenly u realize that u have
certain boundaries in your life and are constantly adding things to your
list of what is acceptable and what isn't. One minute, you are insecure
and then the next, secure? WTF? You laugh and cry with the greatest
force of your life

You feel alone and scared and confused. Suddenly, to change is your enemy and
you try to cling on to the past with your dear life, but soon realize that the
past is drifting further and further away, and there is nothing you can to do
but to stay where you are or to move forward.

You get your heart broken and wonder how someone you loved could do such
damage to you.... or you lie in bed and wonder why you can't meet anyone
decent enough that you want to get to know better. Or maybe u love someone
but you are thinking of someone else and cannot figure out why you are doing this
because you know that you aren't a bad person.

One night stands and random hook ups start to look cheap.
Getting wasted and acting like an idiot started to look pathetic.

You go through the same emotions and questions over and over, and talk
with your friends about the same topics because you cannot seem to make a
decision. You worry about studies, money... the future and making a life
for your self.... and while winning the race would be great, but right not you would just like to be a contender!

What you may not realize is that everyone reading this might relate to it. We
are in out best of times and our worst of times, trying as hard as we can to figure this whole thing out. The only damn thing to do right now is to change for the best and hope for the worst, no offence, but praying is not a part of creating your own path in life.

Rock On Brothers and Sisters! You Live, You Learn

rub a tub

2005-10-13T02:04:00.000+08:00

did not know what to put bout the topic.. haha..
rub a tub and i'll give u a rub! hurhur!

bwah! hmm .. back to myself into the office already..
was feeling kinda annoyed when i found out that i have to serve two more months before i get to secure my new post. well, certain things that certain people told me sort off got me back on track again.

my supervisor actually approached me and ask me, what happen to you ? haha .. i was just like, nah nothing .. but he knows i was annoyed, but what else can i do right? just hope time flies faster! w00tz!

Lil Nephew and Lil Niece birthday will be end of this month 30th OCT and 31st OCT.
My brother and sis-in-law will be throwing them a bash again this year. Last year's was da bomb, sis-in-law, advertising people actually printed posters for her to be hung around the house! w00tz! so cute ! prince sean and pricness samantha, a picture of my nephew drooling and a pic of my niece in a crown .. kekeke!

ooo ! i'll definetly be going to singapore this end year, as i've already spoken to my soon to be manager in dec, she said it's ok to take leave year end, as things will be slow! woo hoo ! yay! shopping shopping ! MUAHAHA! singapore end year sale is t3h pwn3d!

hmm, i cant believe it, i havent dota for freaking 4 days already , and tomorrow is gonna be 5 !! argh!! hands very itchy ! somebody help me !! haha ! i need my dosage of ... chickennnn!! though im a small eater, but aiyah can eat abit g00d lor! kekeke!
crappy thursday! used to love my thursday's now i hate them as i have to stay back additional 3 hours to support this crisis team! KNNCCB! but at least they are paying me O.T !

anywayz, im suppose to plan for a buffet trip to Saisaki in K.L this Friday 15 OCT
I'll call you guys up to confirm head counts! So, expect for my call in the afternoon k guys ! or to make it easier, anyone that reads this blog before 2pm 14 OCT please text me if you guys wanna go. I hope it wont be packed with nathans!

gonna go sleep dee, working bangla shift tomorrow 12pm - 12midnite! KNNCCB!

MC'D BUFFET !!

2005-10-11T22:17:00.000+08:00

This is very t3h pwn3d!!
ANY TAKERS ?? MUAHAHAAHA
It's only available in selected outlets.
So save the pic and zoom on it! :D hehe

Tooth Fairy

2005-10-11T16:42:00.000+08:00

Ever since we were young, most of ours parents will always tell us that, if we were to ever loose a teeth, the tooth fairy will come and take it away and leave you a dollar or depends how generous your parents are.

I've use to wonder does the tooth fairy really exist? Even as i grew older when i started to ponder my parents, they will stay no, but in our heart we know it's them.

It's all this little things that our parents has done for us when we were younger, had given us a comfort, that losing a tooth, is no big deal as we will get $$ in return .. who is bitch about it ? We will come home feeling happy that we lost a tooth, hold the tooth in our hand and show it to our parents, and they will say, just leave it under the pillow. I've always wanted to stay up late night, just to catch my parents sneaking into the room to take it away and replace it with a dollar. but i've never had the strength to do so.

This has always made us to go to bed feeling very very excited and also wake up with a smile on the face !

Will we ever do the same things for our kids? Memories that will always be haunting us till the day we loose all our teeth !

Check out this site that i found, below are my results from the story! haha

Shannon has lost a tooth. Julian said, "Don't bother putting your tooth under the pillow, 'cause the Tooth Fairy is too busy." But Dj Mazlan said, "Shannon should give it a try anyway."
So before Ma turned off the lights at bedtime, Shannon carefully placed the tooth under the pillow.

The next morning Shannon found a note from Tommy The Tooth Mouse and a Sexy Women under the pillow.

When Shannon went to school Julian and Dj Mazlan couldn't believe it!

Now Shannon believes in ME, Tommy The Tooth Mouse

The Tooth Story

Peristiwa Saya

2005-10-07T01:18:00.000+08:00

Hello kawan kawan! Selamat Sejahtera saya ucapkan !

Bagaimana semua hari ini? Aiseh, saya masih deman la, sudah 3 hari berturut turut i deman tau. Deman sampil gua makan ubat batuk sampai takde feel lagi. Hari ini gila, saya kerja 12petang hingga 12 tengah-hari. Penat tu! Sebab pasal opis la, nak suruh kita backup orang, celaka punya orang, setiap hari Khamis terpaksa la saya kerja O.T 3 jam! Mampoi la aku!

Sudah lebih kurang 10 hari, i tak blog, minta maaf ye kawan kawan! Jangan marah i k!
Tadi gi tengok doktor kat taipan, tak tahu apa QHC medical centre la konon, masuk je, macam klinik besar. oh lokasinye kat taipan. Tempat tu macam nak ruput la .. tak de maintenance la. masuk sana, register kat kaunter, lepas itu, puan suruh i duduk tunggu, macam biasa, i tunggu, nampak doktor india yang baru saje bangun tidur masuk bilik konsultasi. Doktor tu, i beritahu lu.. kabur betul la .. cakap pun, tak betul .. selalu mumble mumble, gua tak fahem la... sebab i pergi jumpa doktor hari ini, ialah sebab kerongkong saya sakit, macam ada lebam, bila sentuh sakit. Sebab tu pergi check, doktor kata, kena infection, terperanjat i bila dia cakap. I punya gusi pun bengkak la.. esok mungkin kena gi tengok doktor gigi la. aiyor.

tak faham la kenapa, tak cium orang pun, atau pun tak menyelam kat gua, tak tahu kenapa pula boleh dapat infection. Aiseh.. 3 hari siut, minum air pun sakit.. minum milo tahan lapar, hanya semalam i pergi makan bak kut teh kat puchong dengan member i si bernard. itu pun bak kut teh tak sedap! macam sial la i beritahu lu..

orang deman mood tak baik la, hari itu gua ada konflit sikit dengan yang i.. aiseh, maaf ya yang.. tak sengaja la.. apa nak buat.. ingat nak gi JB dengan tetek sebab ada event kat sana... tapi .. dengan kesihatan yang tak sempurna tak boleh la.. nanti gi sana tidur hospital lagi tak best kan ?

aiyur , saya rasa ar, 3 hari yang lepas ini ar. i makan ubat sampai gila la .. ber-blog pun bahasa melayu, tapi tak pe la .. kita anak malaysia kan .. semua pun faham la.. Ok la kawan kawan, i nak gi batu lagi la.. selamt malam semua!

Still Lost

2005-09-26T02:29:00.000+08:00

Decided not to tag. Not as creative as you may think i am.

It seems to me, a few of us were in EMO+Mode yesterday. I've been thinking alot, and i decided i need to ammend some changes in my life.

Im sick of tired of being who i am now.
I need to move on.
Im so lost, i've no direction on where to go now.
I've been trying to feel myself, but i cant, as my heart is still broken.
How much i still miss her, no one can tell.
I tried pretending as nothing happened and i've move
But i cant.
It was your decision in the end your choice.
I have no regrets, as i know i tried my best to ask you to stay.
I still miss you,
I dont wanna hope no more,
But i cant help it,
Im still hoping for you to come back to me once again.

I've been wondering in life, who i really am.
Who am i ? I dont know
Why are here? I really dont know.
Does "he" exist ? I really dont know.

I believe in myself, but yet, im still a wonderless soul in this world.
I once been had my fortune readt recently, she told me, to close a chapter in your life and move on. But which chapter do you want me to close ? It's not that i believe in it, but if something or someone can help you, why not listen ? It doesnt hurt as i've been pointless for the past 23 years of my life. I need a guide, a guide in this dark world of mine. Show me light, show me the way, someone do show it to me.

Im writting without any directions here right now, just pouring how i feel or what is in my mind right now. Which all of you can see, CONFUSED. I dont even know where to start.

I'll be staying away from the club scenes. Had enough of all these. DOTA seems to rock my world at the moment. Lame? So what. Burning a hole in my pocket is even lamer. Having debts all around you is even lamer. I need to do something with this life of mine. I once got my fortune readt, she told me a scholar will appear in my life to guide me. Who and Where is this person now? I dont know. Appear, i ask of you.

Im very worried bout my job, i hope it will work out for me. I really need a change of environment. I cant be there always sitting, staring blankly at the computer, thinking, thinking of what to do in life. I need to occupy myself. I need fresh things all the time. Oh gosh, i really feel lost.

Forgive and Forget, I can forgive, but i can never forget. The scars they remind me, that the past is real. I tried erasing all the memories, but i still cant, i dont even dare to delete your picture, im so afraid i wont see you again. Stop haunting me, leave me. I need to go .. Please.. i really need to go.

Lyrics : Low Millions - Eleanor

2005-09-23T21:33:00.000+08:00

Low Millions - Eleanor
Album - Ex-Girlfriends

Fine, I understand
Okay with me
If that's the plan
You can take the stereo, TV and the video
The bed the sheets and pillows before you go
But for now unlock the door
What are we doing all this for?
Let me make you dinner one last time
Then you'll go your way and I'll go mine

And I won't call you baby anymore
Won't call you baby like I did before
Won't call you baby anymore... Eleanor

You left your smell, you left your taste
You left me here with my mistakes
And I can't relate to what you say I've done
But just for you, I'll bite my tongue

And I won't call you baby anymore
Won't call you baby like I did before
Won't call you baby anymore

Eleanor I miss you
Eleanor be well
Eleanor I wish you'd release me from your spell
Come on
Eleanor
Do it
You can, do it

And I can't call you baby anymore
Won't call you baby like I did before
Won't call you baby anymore
No I can't call you baby anymore
Won't call you baby like I did before
Won't call you baby anymore Eleanor

wtf?

2005-09-23T04:26:00.000+08:00

I got this is in my Junk Mail Folder today.
Dont ask me how i got it! And i dont even know that person!
Lol'z!

Assalamualaikum...

Sekarang kat mana ?, kat KL lagi ker ? kalau boleh luangkan masa sekeluarga atas
jemputan nih,
apa-apa hal minta maklumbalas, takut2 email ini tidak dibaca...

JEMPUTAN KENDURI DI BATU GAJAH, PERAK.

Ini adalah jemputan kenduri kahwin daripada
Tuan Haji Salleh Zakaria, Pak Leh

Kenduri akan di adakan di
KAMPUNG BATU 3, JLN. TG TUALANG,
BATU GAJAH, PERAK pada 22 September 2005

Di bawah ini adalah salinan kad jemputan daripada beliau.

WALIMATULURUS

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.

Tuan Haji Salleh Zakaria & Khatijah Binti Azlan
dengan segala hormatnya mempersilakan
Dato / Datin / Tuan / Puan / Encik / Cik

……………………………………………………………………………………
serta keluarga ke majlis perkahwinan puteri kami

Adibah Hanisah Binti Salleh
Dengan
Khairuddin Bin HJ. Karim

Pada hari Khamis, 22 September 2005

Di kediaman kami beralamat

No, 13, Kg Batu 3, Jalan Tg. Tualang, 31000 Batu Gajah, Perak.

Semoga dengan kehadiran
Dato / Datin / Tuan / Puan / Encik / Cik
akan menyerikan lagi majlis kami dan semoga di berkati Allah SWT.

Terima kasih dan Wassalam

_________________________________________
Aturcara Majlis: 12.00 pm – 3.00 pm – Jamuan Makan
1.30 pm – Bersanding

Turut Mengundang:
Seisi Keluarga

Mooncake Fest!

2005-09-21T13:06:00.000+08:00

Hey! Pictures updated!
Will blog bout it real soon!
Need to get ready to go to work now actually!
Hehe!
Alrighty then!
Enjoy the pics!

Moon Cake

MTV IN MY BLOG! Pwned!

2005-09-20T22:41:00.000+08:00

Hehe!

Guess what! muahahah! can watch mtv on my blog man! muahaha!

found this website from a friendster friend!

muahaha! will be changing it weekly i hope! hehe! have disabled the music in the page, so it wont clash ! keke ! wee !

Video of the Weekk!

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Lyrics : The Click Five - Just the Girl

2005-09-13T19:24:00.000+08:00

I bet this happens to all of us guys out there right ? :)
Hehe!

She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
She pushed me in the pool at our last school reunion
She laughs at my dreams
But I dream about her laughter
Strange as it seems
She's the one I'm after

[Chorus]
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

She can't keep a secret for more than an hour
She runs on 100 proof attitude power
And the more she ignores me
The more I adore her
What can I do?
I'd do anything for her

[Chorus]
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for

But when she sees it's me
On her caller ID
She won't pick up the phone
She'd rather be alone
But I can't give up just yet
Cause every word she's ever said
Is still ringin' in my head
Still ringin' in my head

She's cold and she's cruel
But she knows what she's doin'
Knows just what to say
So my whole day is ruined

[Chorus]
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
Cause she's bittersweet
She knocks me off of my feet
And I can't help myself
I don't want anyone else
She's a mystery
She's too much for me
But I keep comin' back for more
Oh, I keep comin' back for more
She's just the girl I'm lookin' for
Just the girl I'm lookin' for

(Just the girl) I'm lookin' for
(Just the girl) I'm lookin' for
(Just the girl) I'm lookin' for

Just the girl I'm lookin' for

Kangoo!

2005-09-09T02:26:00.000+08:00

Hehe! Woo! i have to do this, though the car is ugly, but i might be driving it! haha! cant wait cant wait and i hope it happens! sigh! i dun need the car actually, i just need a career advancement! I do hope it'll come true! ahhh!

What Men Wants

2005-09-08T20:58:00.000+08:00

Got this from the archive of Askmen.com

What Men Wants!

1- It is important to find a woman that cooks and cleans.

2- It is important to find a woman that makes good money.

3- It is important to find a woman that enjoys having sex.

4- It is important that these three women never meet.

Hehe!

Memories

2005-09-08T03:26:00.000+08:00

Ahh! Dear all.

Alas! Pictures uploaded

Just click on the link, it opens in a new window!

Memories of R3

enjoy!

The Call

2005-09-06T21:13:00.000+08:00

Manage to call, "The Manager" today, spoke to him for bout 5-10 minutes.

Conversation was something like this

TM : Good Evening,
Me : Hi TM, this is Shannon here
TM : Oh, Hi Shannon, i've been trying to contact you the whole day, but somehow, everytime when i get someone to put me through your extension, there's no answer.
Me : Hmm, cant be, maybe i was out for my break during that time.
TM : Shannon, about the vacancy you applied, i was considering putting you into another vacancy, the Mobile CSE
Me : *Sounded suprised* and showed interest in the position and also glad that it's finally happening.
TM : So when can you leave ?
Me : Ya, they can let me go anytime.
TM : I have handed over your resume and the test result to the "MCSE" person in charge, she will give you a call one of these days, to have a talk with you.
Me : Oh ok, why dont you get her to call my mobile, as working in Customer Service, i might always be engaged.
TM : Ok, im driving now, why dont you just text me, and i'll pass your number.
Me : Alright TM. Thanks alot. Will sms you in abit.

*Some small talk*

Waiting for the next call is killing me! Going crazy in the office now, jumping around and acting silly! *hehe* This past 2 days, proved something, i aint moving towards the 1/4 life crisis posted by Ellie! hehe! Im really happy for what is happening to me, and im glad i have my friends and family to share the news with them! All those hardwork finnaly paid off.
Sayang, friends, and family and dear colleagues, thanks for the advice and support!
Just hope everything goes through!

Key Accounts, manager approached me again, she is really keen on taking me in, as she was asking me, so how was your previous application ? Any news from Sales? I told her no news yet and still pending, she even added some salt in, the previous application you applied for, i heard it's very messy. *biatch* trying to discourage me. hehe! i just smiled and nodded. She also said, that the vacancy will be opened tomorrow, as she has been pushing HR ( Human Resource ) to Publish the post for a week and 1/2 already.

Nothing much i can do, but to sit back and wait for my phone to RING!

Wish me luck !

wOo hoo!

2005-09-05T23:12:00.000+08:00

Hmm, most of you know about my "Pending" sales job at DHL. Oh well decided to call in to another manager, to ask him whether is the vacacny taken, he told me yes, i was like *sigh* but then, he told me, dont worry, the "higher managers" are looking to put me at another vacancy! It's similar to what im doing now, but i get to run outside and meet customers! yay'z! Mobile Customer Support Executive. Nama pun panjang sial! If i were to get the job, i'll be given the Basic and Claims of the normal field sales exec, just that it's without commision! hehe! That is still more then what im earning, and the best part is, i dont have to sell! ehekz! Just meet up with customers daily and just err get blasted! haha! :) A fun job i would say, i'll get to solve problems after problems! and meet alot of leng luis woo! hehe! :P!! blehz! dat was one news dat made my day! the manager even told me, "you did not hear it from me!" haha! and he also say that, his manager will give me a ring one of these days! hehe! happie-tubby!

Job today is as usual, just me being xtra hard-working. hurhur! supervisor informed that one of my colleague called in and took emergency leave today as one of his close friend passed away, i hope everything is ok! will be seeing him tomorrow, should i ask him ? hmm! Friends they come and go, but good friends and buddies, they'll come, but they'll never go !

I wanted to say something, but i forgot what i wanted to say! haha! woops!
My bad my bad! will blog again when i remember it! hhurhur! take care all!

the path

2005-09-03T04:36:00.000+08:00

Just got back from an outing with michelle, chiew, ken, yang and julian.

The night started with just a usual session of yam cha. Went out with Ken to meet the rest, jul, yang, and wai hang at pan bakery ss15. Was cracking our head on what to do, till michelle called and julian suggested the Curve, oh well we got nothing to loose anyway, oh, wai hang adjourned off to "ta kei" hehe!

had to fetch ken home first as he was in his shorts, and ellie parked her car at ken's place. Drove to Uptown to pick up michelle, and off we go to curve. Went to a place called Slippery Senorita, ahh! sounds kinky eh ? but ngekz, it's just a normal joint. Had 2 jugs of beer, ellie had orange juice the first round, then hur hur, we insisted she has something alcoholic, came a Frozen Lime Magerita! *yayz!* ellie's face was so red. Had a free jug of beer from the owner erm Elaine, thanks to Michelle for it as well, should thank her dad actually! haha!

Ellie had to be home by 2, left the curve about 130am as we decided to go somewhere to continue to drink actually. Drove back to subang to let ellie pick her car up from ken's place, and instead got hungry, hehe, called chiew and picked her up from her place and went over to Ming Tien Megah to eat! Had another mug of beer there actually and kampar noodle and some dim sum ( siu mai and ha kao *not nice!* )

Bwahh chit chatted the whole night with them, and actually decided to have a lil gathering at my place tomorrow, but depends if the rest wants it, as wai hang is very keeeeeeeeennn on going karaoke-ing on saturday. oh well, will plan bout tomorrow again. Bwah! time to sleep! so tired! sigh.

The path that i wanna go seems uncertain, but it seems to me that you have chosen your path, do we decide to meet or to change path is uncertain, as the last i've heard from you, you have decided to choose another path. May i be mistaken, but may you not be mistaken. Promises, i shall not give, as im never good in keeping my promise, things come and they go, but at the end of the day, i hope our friendship will never go unforseen. For this past two months, i have tried to understand you, but for the past 23 years i still cant understand myself. It takes time to mend a broken heart, and we'll never know when it will be mended.

Good night.

lazy

2005-09-01T02:36:00.000+08:00

too lazy to blog
will blog when im in the mood!
cheers

The Peri Nexy Day!

2005-08-28T23:11:00.000+08:00

ahh woke up still feeling the burning sensation in my tummy! urghh! wasnt in a very good mood due to stomach discomfort, got my colleague brian, to buy some eno when he went out for break! felt much better after dat! had some malay nasi campur, ahh not very nice la! the beef did not taste like beef! started watching back desperate housewives, as i had nothin else to watch, after a few more episodes, it got more interesting! hehe! :P The Mystery of Mary Alice Young!

ended work at 7, and met up my parents, brother and my lovely nephew and niece. had dinner at this place called boon tuan or something at ss2. it's a chicken rice shop actually, quite nice actually! went back home at bout 9, and slept off as i was too tired, but at bout 10+ yap called me! finally he called! Followed him to SS3 as he wanted to eat dinner and i just had a drink. After dinner, yap asked if i wanna follow him to meet up with his boss and colleagues in KL for a couple of drinks and he said will come back early, and i was thinkin to myself, why not? ended up in Jalan Ipoh, someplace called JI CLUB, it's opposite the street of the dim sum shops. Ah.. Went in, some girls were singing on the stage, and stuffs like that. It's a clean club ok! hehe! no hanky panky! Was introduced to yap's boss, martin and some other of his colleagues, all nice people. Yap had too many to drink, as he got damn damn damn high! haha! had to take care of him! Hur hur! first time seeing him so drunk! haha! he was like a big baby, and the things he did, e.g, putting "A" french fries on the table and just start staring at it, and if u put a bundle of it on the table he'll shove everything a side, and put back one on the table and start staring at it again! haha! i even took his the fries and started jumping it around the table from left to right, and you can see yap turning his face left to right, just trying to follow where the fries is going! haha!

left only at 230, (early my ass) had to drive him home, and he was complaining that he needed to eat, he called chiew and we ended up in Lai Kong Sunway with nicky and chiew's brother. My oh my ! seeing yap so high is really damn funny! haha! :) oh, and did i mention that i will be having his car for the next couple of days ? as he will be flying of to kk in the morning. hehe! woo hoo! brand new less than 6 months old nissan sentra! vroom vroom! warning ! mad driver on the road! hurhur! manage to reach home only at bout 430-5am. aih! not gonna believe yap anymore when he says gonna be goin home early! his definition of early, is really early!

Peri Peri!

2005-08-27T21:36:00.000+08:00

Had a quiet saturday night out with ellie, jul and wai hang. It was a last minute thing, as we were thinking what to eat and what do after dinner. Wanted to head down to Cream for hardsequence but in the end got lazy! lol'z

Headed down to Midvalley, as ellie, wanted to watch the cave and only midvalley and one utama 2 had a 9pm++ movie. Me and ellie lined up for the tickets whilst julian followed wai hang to see his toy models. Gundam stuffs. (kiddo!) hehe! The Cave had lousy seatings so we ended up watching Red Eye instead. Ok-OK movie only i would say. From a scale of 10, a 3.5 i'll give.

Ahh, decided to eat Nando's as me and ellie was craving even the day before it! hehe! wootz! ordered our meals and i had the EXTRA HOT PERI PERI .. w00! Had nando's before at Pyramid and Parade, but nothing beats the one at midvalley! A very good recommendation if you get a peri peri ass the next day! haha! :P I underestimated the peri-ness and added my more xtra flaming sauce and the garlic sauce! ahhh! was i on FIRE! for the first time in my life i felt so "HOT" haha! :)had our lovely dinner and went back upstairs to catch the movie.

Even after the movie i can still feel the burning sensation in my stomach .. urghh ! Decided to shoot some pools after movie. On the way back to subang, dropped by Mcd's 15 drive thru for some Chocolate sundae to ease the burning sensation! hur hur! best best best best! Headed to Asia Cafe in subang, and damn it was too packed, and the waiting list was long long long ! Went over to Racks in subang square, had to wait oso but not long. Played a few games of foosball before we were called to the pool table! haha! i was rocking on the table! woo hoo! 7 games in a row i won ! w00tz! PEMBUNUHAN RAKSASA !!

Smashed!

2005-08-27T16:30:00.000+08:00

Had a call from Mel on thursday night, was invited for a B.A.T Dunhill event on friday, oh my oh my, when she told me the details of the night, and all that attracted me was this two words,"Free Flow" hur hur!

Julian and i was invited, as we headed down to Alexis Bangsar for the event. I thought the night was gonna be a boring night, as i did not know anyone, beside julian and mel herself. Was filling up some forms and i noticed this familiar face, it was Paul, he was also working with B.A.T, chatted with Paul, and he told me 2 more friends coming Tajul and C.B, when i heard those 2 names, haha, i knew the night wont be boring anymore! haha!

Oh Man, the amount of drinks that they were distributing was, woah woah woah, Wines, Chivas and beers, non stop. Hur hur, being the usual me, i had whisky, Loved Every Drop Of It! Yummy! Manage to meet a new few friends Helmi and his wife Nissy, Najib, Malik, Sanjeet and Mark. Najib and Helmi, dont judge them by their names, they can really drink! woo hoo! drinks after drinks we were having, but not fair la, i was drinkin on the rocks wei! hahaha! Hmm, it's such a small world as i was chatting with Mark, and he knew people in DHL, Solomon and Jameson, i was like hell man, solomon is my colleague and he works in the same team as i am.

Was moving around between the two tables, exchange drinks with the other sides as well. C.B was just being an ass, he got all of us a shot glass, and started making everyone shooting it!Shots after shots of whisky. Goshh, luckily i managed to escape, haha, but poor julian, got SMASHED! Real SMASHED! He could hardly remember anything when i spoke to him today. Haha, Thankfully i was controlling my drinks, so not like me, yea, but i got pretty high myself.

Later that night, emily and boon joined us as well, 3 of us, were chatting with Julian, as he wasnt feeling good. Hope u feel better now!Oh, sorry if i talked to loud. I was asking mel, whats with the free drinks and free dinner ? She said, it was B.A.T's way of showing their appreciation to their loyal SMOKERS. So it pays to SMOKE! haha. I guess we will be having a smashing dinner as well, next month, it will be held at Le Merridien and it's an Arabic Theme, woo there will be belly dancers performance as well! Muahaha! DOnt worry, i wont be doin the dancing! hehe! Cant wait till the 16/9, as i will be meeting some of them again! hehe! Interesting night it's as this is my first time im attending such event, hopefully there is more to come!! Haha!

Had lunch with Tek, Julz, Wai hang, Art and Boon at Wong Seong Kee SS14, had the claypot noodle, hur hur, and pity tek, a girl spilled soya sauce and chili padi on him! haha! im partly to be blamed in this as well, as we were chatting my hands just started moving and oh, guess who was behind ? U guys get the idea. haha ! Good lunch with good laughter as we were talking back bout P.D! haha! Had to come home and pick my mom up to send her to the Saloon, ahhh, now i got 1 hour more to kill before i can pick her up! Aiyer! Long time laaaa.. Oh just collected my lomo' pics, did not like wat i took, hmm, maybe cos it was my first time taking it. Nvm Nvm more to come more to come! hehe! I even had problem finding out what battery i had to use. Haha! Still thinking whether should i join tek for 2nites event at cream, hard sequence, hmm. still not sure laa! ahhh! but i feel like going, but there is a part of me lazy to go oso la! haha! :P

have to meet up with yap 2nite to collect back my ATM card, sigh, i was so happy as the 26th finally came, and i was happily lining up at the atm machine yesterday, and noticed that i dont have my ATM card with me !! I was like ahhh shit shit, called yap, and wat great news i had, he's at penang, and will only be coming back 2nite! aiyur aiyur!

ok la, wanan go see what my dad is doin downstairs, he is tryin to set up back the tv, astro, dvd player and the amp. see if he needs anyhelp as he is color blind! hehe! catch u guys later! tata!

Late yet again

2005-08-26T01:42:00.000+08:00

hehe! the title says it all! i was late again, and yes YET AGAIN!
but this time not late too work, just late for some refresher course which my customer service is gonna use later. Some new phone system. Which keng = tubby, dont have to attend la! waste of time! haha! training was suppose to start at 1130. Woke up only at 1110 i think! hehe! Shower and change, hit the road at bout 1125, came out from the kfc corner only, "JAM" i was like, aiyah fuck it la, no need go dee! haha.. so with the constant slow driving, i reached the office, just nice 12pm to start work! haha! w00tz! late but not late!

work was as usual, customers calling in, answering the queries, arranging pick up, blasting in my ears, the usual shit, to think of it, my right side is a lil deaf now since i started working in dhl.. art and boon, becareful ya! haha wonder if i can sue them for it. *hmm*

finished work at 10, did an hour full of crappy OT. Headed back home to eat, miss home cook food, as i called my house earlier to ask them to leave some food.. ahh got back home to my suprise, the food looks great ( since when my mom doesnt cook good food ?) ask those who have eaten my mom's cooking .. it's DIMILIKI !!
Had erm pork chop, french beans, fried sambal fish and ABC Soup! Yummy! *burpp* ahh the pork chop was ahh ! heavennnnnnnnn ohhh heavennn! haha!

ooo finally got my songs to work! used briefcase instead of ripway. got the yu jian, tong hua and the rest running, added jacky cheung's deng ni deng dao wo xin tong! haha! lagu emooooooo! woootz!

just came back from yam cha actually, went out at bout 1130. went n pick up wai hang to collect back my camera, as he collected from her earlier. gonna upload the pics soon. ended up in asia cafe, as we met up with bernard, kok jeong and wai keong. had barli limau ping! woo best best! refreshing and also a cup of cina tehhh ais!! cant wait for 2morrow la! been broke like since the day i got back from PD man! tomorrow is PAY DAY!! yayz!! hehe! alrite folks, gonna maybe upload the pics now! haha will post it somewhere. will add the link once it's done! btw, i dont bother bout proper spelling or checkin back my spelling error when i blog. so if there's any mistake dont bother correcting me ok .. instead .. go **** yourself hehe!

p/s
eh miss u la! gonna call u soon! :P

You

2005-08-25T02:33:00.000+08:00

The songs they are all for you.
The ones that you like and some that i like.
I dont have to prove anything to anyone, just to you i do.
Im fighting to win,
to win your trust and your love.
I aint doing the same mistake as i once did.
I'll make sure the next time im there,
Im there for you and for real i'll be.

tubz!

Late!

2005-08-24T21:59:00.000+08:00

Ahhhh!! woke up late today! haha!
woke up at 1130 and saw the time, hmm, still got time, why not just sleep for another 30 mins ? oh well, slept and woke up at 130pm! haha! was suppose to start work at 2pm. text my supervisor and told him i'll be coming in late, lucky he was cool bout it, or u may say used to it! lol'z! eh! but i havent been late for quite sometime ok! i've been good i think. Maybe just twice a week tht im late! haha!

i've been pretty lazy coming in to work, bcos of a donkey. such a two face asshole. sigh worst come to worst im reporting to him. arghh! i just wanna leave dis deparment!! i dont even wanna be in the same department as him anymore. sigh, but i do know for sure, that if i do leave my team now, im gonna miss them, all the coconuts in it! haha! had a lousy nasi goreng at the stalls below my office. not gonna go to that stall again! lousy lousy lousy.. but it looks appealing though!
Never judge a food by it's APPEARANCE!! but not all food taste like dat right? take for instant .. yummy .. my dinner! haha, bought erm twiggies and squiggles both choclate flavour two days in a row! ahh so nice !haha ! yummy yummy !

It's only me and 1 more colleague left in the room now, wiht a 40 year old dude ! yes .. he is in his 40's an he is in the same department and team as me! haha but he is quite a cool guy, just dat irritating at most times. Always with his health concious advice, dont smoke, dont eat so oily dont this dont dat! arghh! u should look at him, he doesnt look healthy at all! with a big big shiny bald patch! haha!

wat am i gonna do for 2 more hours? arghh! somebody tell me tell me tell me! dying or boredom ere! damn sien laaaa! hmm, wai hang called me earlier today asked me whether do i wanna catch a movie! i wish i can man! called him just now just to check wat movie is he catching, haha! luckily he is not watchin dee, at least got kaki to watch movie someother time! alot of movies are coming in real soon! ahh i still havent seen charlie and the choc factory. i wanna watch wedding crashers as well!

wat to do now is 1 thing, wat to do later is another thing! crap crap crap! oh oh!
it was damn ironic, was talkin to ellie, this afternoon and told her that i got erm music for my blog, and she told she has as well.. i was like ? ehh ? when did u get it .. she said yest name, haha i oso got mine yest nite! lol'z ! gonna go back and see what song to put in again .. hmm gonna try to put a playlist in as well, at least can play a few songs at a time, currently howie is just repeating over and over again, and the music is not the full version dengz it, did not check it properly b4 i rip it off the net!

woo my house renovation is gonna be completed real soon! ahh! looks different now! real different especially the front! gonna have like an open hall in front! cool cool! will post come b4 and after pics once it's done! yayz!

Bro, This is for you

2005-08-24T02:03:00.000+08:00

It’s a wonderful relationship,
That we both share,
If anything goes wrong,
Youre always there,

We're two of a kind,
Both me and you,
A wonderful friendship,
A friendship so true,

Youre there for me,
You cheer me up when im sad,
Youre there for me,
You make me laugh when im mad,

It's once in a lifetime,
That I'll meet someone like you,
Yes once in a lifetime,
To have a friendship so true,

If i would never met you,
I would not be the same,
If i would never met you,
I would be in so much pain,

Coz to ever lose you,
Would cut me so deep,
A friendship like ours,
Is a friendship to keep

Bro, i'll just like to add a lil more, no matter what happens, You know i'll always try to be there for you. It's your life, it's your decision, but this is our friendship. We both live in it and the decision is not for you to make alone.Take care bro

Collide

2005-08-23T22:14:00.000+08:00

by Howie Day

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

But I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide

I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
You somehow find, you and I collide

Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

Food ! Yum!

2005-08-23T18:30:00.000+08:00

Got back from my break and saw this email! This is something which i have to share. The food looks too goood! Any takers?

You'll have to click on the link. Im having trouble displaying it in here.

Food Glorious Food!

so i lied! :)

2005-08-23T16:21:00.000+08:00

Hehe! Too lazy to re-post about my r3 trip, as both my friends has already posted it, anyone that is interested to read it, you can always go to happie-ellie.blogspot.com or te2k.multiply.com + pictures.
All in the trip was just "SUPERB" Everyone had fun!

At the office now, was thinking, should i blog now or blog tonight? bah .. either way i have nothing to do now. the calls today are ok, slightly heavy. But still manageable! Of cos can la! tubby mah! gosh so hungry la! gonna have my break real soon! and guess what? i just found out that it's raining ? HOW AM I GONNA GO EAT?
the stalls below Menara Tm, you'll have to walk outside to get there, and there it's not a covered area, the damn cafeteria at the 3rd floor, closes early.
sigh, i guess i might just starve today!! aiyurrrrrrrrr .. how la like dat ? how how brown cow?

R3

2005-08-22T02:39:00.000+08:00

Just got back from P.D at about 8 tonight.

This is my very first trip with some of my other friends. A very memorable trip i would say. Ellie, Tek, Alvin, and Oak. Had a great time!

Laughter was spread through out the whole journey! Thanks to the clowns that we brought along!! Dimiliki!

Journey started late on Friday. Left only at about 9pm from Subang. Had some complications in transport at the first place. We left Subang with four cars and 10 people. Dont ask why, long story! hehe!

On the way to p.d, had a some problems, as the apartment where we are suppose to stay the on the first night, reception closes at 10pm, and we werent informed by boon's aunty till bout 930pm! Emily had to call and talk to them and in the end we lost the room, but thankfully we manage to book Oceanview, the apartment they were gonna stay the next day. My initial plan was just to crash at their place for one night, as i'll be staying over at chiew's place the second day.

Arrived and checked in, it was bout 11 by then. Decided to get some food. Had malay food, as the first mamak shop we went to kitchen is alredy close. The food we had was quite good. Kuey Teow Goreng + Mata Kerbau ;) Best!

Arrived back at the apartment, and started drinking, beer waits for no one! Introduced a card a game, which i learned from Karl, here's how it works.
Ace, Drink yourself, 2-7 hand out drinks, 8 bust-a-rhyme, 9 set a rule, 10 toilet pass, J, happy hour, Q Brands and King "THE THUMB MASTER"! Haha, thinking bout that night makes me laugh! Ellie and her never ending kampai, and tek with his never ending thumb!

... to be continued ... sleepy la!